Part of the featured topic series,
What is Love?
I was lonely in your presence, even though we were together. You looked to the stars. I sat beside you. I wanted to be like you. You wanted to be like me. Somehow we both got lost. I want you to find me, but only after you realize who you are.
I wish the circumstances of your inheritance had been better. That is one thing I could not fully control. I am sad about that. But it worries me more, that at times, you wish to emulate those who only wished to possess you, and that somehow you’ll find yourself by loving them. You will not. They do not have the answers you seek. Those answers are woven within you. They did not know what I did and for that, I smirk.
It has been a difficult journey without you. You were to be my guide. But alone, I had to find my own way. I wasn’t very good at it and I was hard to love. Maybe you did try. Maybe I just judged myself unworthy of you. Maybe it was I who made myself invisible.
Now we look upon a new age. So much time has passed. I feel as if the sun is rising to erase our memories of such a dark night. You are waking up. As usual, I’ve been awake all night. Perhaps it is ironic that now I might be able to sleep. And I wonder, as you go about your new day without me, if you will ever know how much I loved you… and if you will ever love me back.
Copyright © 2011 Suzanne Ahjira. All Rights Reserved.
what a beautiful piece, thanks for writing it Suzanne. I love it.
If that isn’t divine inspiration, I don’t know what is. : ) I’ve re-read this a few times, and each time, I find that the words convey more messages. Lovely!
Beautifully put Suzanne
Thank you all. I’ll just say it was quite the experience to write that. I didn’t see it coming, but as I did invite all of our divine friends in spirit to inspire us for this featured topic, I’m sure much of their love for us was woven into it.
Reading this I pondered, does it speak of flesh or spirit – or both? Mystically beautiful.
Wow…very touching…sad…the unnecessary separation…or maybe it has been necessary in what it brought about, bringing us to this point…do you think someone in spirit thinks you were guiding them? That never occurred to me.
There was no wondering involved with this one. This came straight from the heart ;-)
Beautiful!! :)