The Divine Feminine, Divine Masculine and The Reunion of The Disowned Crazy Shadow-Self

Whew! What a week we’ve just moved through. The synchronicities are baffling and in hindsight, they’re telling of just how enormous these current shifts in consciousness are, impacting every aspect of life from individuals, to societies and to the Earth herself.

Last week began as any other week… in ways I can’t remember. That’s how I know it was like any other week [smirk]. But things quickly revealed themselves when my impending coffee date with HG member, Jennifer Salness, brought a flood of wisdom and awareness that she had experienced prior to our meeting as well. Clearly something was up, and as we talked, the details begin to appear.

The Underlying Intention & The Divine Feminine

We discussed what felt like a deep, underlying intention for both Holistic Ground and a publication she has managed for a number of years, Presence Magazine. Both of us were feeling the same thing… a kind of alignment with sacred space in which the deeper aspects of life, its shifting and its transformation, could be discussed in a supportive, loving way. Neither of us could fully describe it in its entirety, but we both agreed it was a space where the divine feminine could express itself with support and care.

The Divine Masculine’s Return To Harmony

Later in our conversation we discussed various aspects of how this sacred space would take shape and how our two organizations would come together symbiotically to support the underlying intention. How would this look? What does it do? How does it work? What does it achieve? How do we maintain the space and keep it aligned with the intention? These questions sparked a side conversation about the divine masculine and its harmonious role with the divine feminine.

Many years ago, a somewhat mysterious young man I met, loaned me a book about a woman’s surreal experiences in the astral plane with some kind of spiritual warrior guide. The guide was explaining to her, the symbiotic relationship between the divine feminine and the divine masculine. He said, “The divine feminine, is like the wise sage who has fostered an inner connection to the source of all that is. That connection requires much attention in order to allow wisdom to flow from inner realms into this one. For this reason, the divine masculine then is like the guardian who makes space for the divine feminine to make this connection. The divine masculine knows, values, honors and defends this space where knowledge and wisdom flow and then it uses that knowledge and wisdom to create and manifest experiences that support the whole.”

I never forgot that part of the book. It was an amazing visual in my mind that still remains as vivid as it was the day I read it some 20 years ago. It removed the illusion that the feminine and masculine were separate or split between the sexes, but more correctly, were split within each sex. The problem was, more often than not, men would suppress their divine feminine and women would suppress their divine masculine – the suppressed feminine in men causing creation without wisdom, the suppressed masculine in women giving away its wisdom and knowledge without valuing or honoring itself and then each of them looking to the other in anger for not providing what each suppressed.

So as Jennifer and I talked, it became clear that it was time to bring the divine masculine back into alignment with the divine feminine. If we are to create space where the divine feminine can express this tremendous wisdom, then we must also create the space in such a way that honors that wisdom and supports it.

We both sat silent from time to time, contemplating the overwhelming flow of information.

Then I asked her if she had a sword. I have a sword. Years ago the thought of possessing any kind of weapon made my heart sink. But an experience in the summer of 2009 changed that. I was doing some soul retrieval with Michele Mayama, where a fragment of my soul was refusing to return. He was a heart-broken warrior who failed to achieve his expectations for that lifetime and he was holding out in that time, calling his comrades back to finish the job. We did eventually convince him to return, and when he did, I was overwhelmed with a tremendous grief, not necessarily because he had failed, but because he felt he had failed all those who had invested so much hope in him. He was the proverbial divine masculine who failed to save the divine feminine he set out to rescue.

After that experience, I researched his time period and found a replica sword like those that were common at that time. I bought the sword for him, as a gift, and I gave it to him saying, “Thank you for coming home. I acknowledge your great pain, and sorrow and I feel you in my heart and the convictions you have to restore this divine balance. We will complete this mission in this time and you can once again, inspire hope in all those around you.”

From that moment on, that sword represented everything in the heart of this deeply loving, compassionate and fierce warrior – the honoring of the divine feminine, and the support of the space it requires to illuminate an entire world. He, and the thousands of others like him, did not succeed in that time, but they are here again, in this time, wielding their symbolic swords, and to finally succeed in creating and supporting that space.

Then, as the Universe has a way of doing, later in the week, I was gifted with a situation that illuminated this entire wave of wisdom and it wasn’t until that happened, that all of this became real and clear. It was the first time where my inner feminine was not left to defend itself. My inner masculine was there to say, “This space will be held sacred and aligned with its intention. It’s that simple.”

Now one might think that’s enough for one week, but at that point, we were maybe half way through. Strangely, but not surprising, if you know how the Universe works, a new member appeared at Holistic Ground whose website sported the weekly intention, “Wield Your Sword with Practiced Skill.” ← See the image and read what it says!

I quickly sent that to Jennifer and said, “Incoming verification from the Universe!” Sometimes you have just to shake your head and laugh in awe of it all. Conversations with others continued to highlight this theme right into the weekend.

The Suppressed Disowned Crazy Shadow-Self

As the end of the week arrived, I looked forward to hearing Michele Mayama channel Archangel Michael. All last year Michael worked with us at Lightsmith to undo fear-based structures that had crystallized within consciousness. I came to enjoy his more proactive, masculine energy and felt akin to him, after all, we both had swords.

He came this week to discuss a number of things related to the disowned crazy shadow-self. As he spoke, he talked about a split in consciousness that happened to humanity as a result of its decision to use duality as its method of evolution. Duality is the use of two opposing, energetic poles to generate an experience. As one pole exerts its energy, the other responds with an equal but opposite response, which then creates the resulting experience. It’s through these dualistic experiences that we learned about the whole.

The problem with the method of duality however, Michael explained, is that it, by definition, created a split in consciousness where fear would suppress aspects of the personality. If one feared appearing arrogant and condescending, the arrogant, condescending aspects of self would be separated out and suppressed into the unconscious where it would appear they did not exist. He called the collection of these suppressed aspects the disowned shadow-self.

Then surprisingly, Michael referenced one of our popular figures in entertainment who’s currently going through, what looks to be from the outside, a very public break-down of sanity. He explained that this man was currently going through the healing process of this split in consciousness where it was no longer possible to suppress the arrogant shadow-self and as it re-emerged from unconsciousness, it certainly made itself known. Michael asked the group, “Do you think he’s crazy? He is not crazy. He is just split. If you look at him and you say to yourself, ‘That man is crazy!’ then you are saying that you, yourself, have suppressed aspects of self you fear, are indeed, crazy.”

Then Michael says, “This man is giving you a gift. He is bringing to light a wound in all of humanity that must now be healed. Each person must heal this spilt in consciousness and reunite the disowned shadow-self with the whole of who they are.”

I like to think there isn’t much that shocks me, but considering this was the culmination of a week of eye-opening synchronicities, I sat there in awe adding it all up…. suppressed masculine, suppressed feminine… suppressed, disowned, crazy shadow-self. Holy smokes Batman!

The Whole Is Greater Than The Sum of Its Parts

So today has been a whirlwind of intertwined awareness all coming together at once. I didn’t even mention the long and enduring conversations I had about all this with a number of other members, all of which brought different aspects of the wisdom to light. It seemed in every conversation, the suppression of the masculine or the suppression of the feminine was at play. Which piece is missing within and how is the current experience illuminating that?

When I look at the week as a whole, it clearly indicated it’s time for me to begin reuniting these suppressed aspects of self – the suppressed masculine – the suppressed feminine. To do that, may require the release of some fears that these parts may be crazy! Of course that’s a judgement so I’ll probably spend some time trying to understand why I’m holding judgements for certain things and then find the aspect of self that was suppressed because of it. In a conversation with Sharon, she wrote, unbeknownst to either of us at the time, “Stitch together, down the center, allow the mending…”

On top of all this, I sense the overarching wholeness to which all of this mending belongs. I feel I’m standing in the doorway to something much grander that the sum total of the steps I’ve taken to arrive here. What lies beyond this point is something truly magnificent that can’t fully be embodied until the split is healed, so mending it will be. A reunion is in order. Welcome back you crazy you!

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